It is pouring with rain tonight -- torrential, Biblical rain (just water, no blood or frogs, but a powerful amount of water). And tonight I taught my last class. I am -- or "yam" as an ether buddy would say "berbery sad." I cried for a while in the car on the way home but that's a poor choice in any circumstances and especially so in the dark with all this rain, so I pulled myself together, concentrated on the immediate task at hand, and got on. But I think I'm going to indulge in a good mope this weekend.
Oh, the unfairness of it all.
See? I've started already.
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Oh, I think, if you can quote a cat, albeit an exceptional cat,you are not *too* mopey!
But I think I understand the tug that you feel. Letting go of something such a part of your self is never easy.
I (and the cats!) wish you well.
wv is: phylsab...perhaps a contraction of philosophical and abject?
thanks, Dinah. That's precisely the feeling -- "letting go of a part of myself." I know I can look for another teaching gig, and probably find one, but this particular one will be hard to match. I left the door open there, though. If the river flows again in that direction, it is possible I could go back.
wv: micior.
an exclamation, I think: micior!
Good luck, Melanie! i have only ever left a job with a profound sense of relief (followed shortly afterwards by a frying-pan-into-the-fire realization). I think you're lucky that it was more or less your decision to retire/resign, rather than having the job ripped from you, as is happening to so many people now. I'm really glad that you left the door open, too.
thanks so much, quiltcat. my hope is that leaving school will free up time for art. and that i'll use it for that. i'll see what i see, and i'm feeling better today in the late afternoon about everything. still sad, but not quite so much. i am grateful to have found a full time job that is somewhat recession-proof (educational publishing) although my new employers are feeling the pinch.
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