Sunday, December 19, 2010

under consideration

A second offering in the Prayers on the River series -- a triptych-y thing-y. I'm wondering about the balance of the components.

"boats" with candle flames only
 
"boats" with flowers only

"boats" with flames and flowers

I'm thinking flames and flowers, but not so many flowers (or not so densely gathered there at the bottom) and maybe not quite so brightly colored. More pink, less orange.

(Note: It's not a trapezoid, that's a demonstration of my Citizen Kane-like skills with camera angles. Welles is, after all, considered a genius . . .)

Saturday, December 11, 2010

at work

So I've been working in my studio. Trying to get accustomed to saying that so I don't feel so pretentious whilst saying, or even thinking, it. A new series, Prayers on the River, inspired by aarti, the Hindu prayer ceremony that concludes with celebrants placing flowers and candles in little boats and setting them afloat on the Ganges River. I have two more panel ideas and a triptych-like thing in my head, and then I'll see where it goes next. Not my most original or innovative offering, but a beginning of something.

Prayers on the River (1)
11 inches x 18 inches (width x height)
commercial prints and batik, machine stitched,
metallic and variegated threads, agate chips

Meanwhile, Beau is confused and searching for a comfortable place to hang out in the studio. He's going to be very disappointed when this rack goes away. I'll have to find something for him.



Wednesday, November 24, 2010

wordy wednesday

'Tis the gift to be simple, 'tis the gift to be free,
'Tis the gift to come down where we ought to be,
And when we find ourselves in the place just right,
'Twill be in the valley of love and delight.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

away

Off to see the family in Delaware tomorrow (Tuesday) with hopes of avoiding at least a little of the holiday traffic.


Happy Thanksgiving, everyone.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

wordy wednesday



Now It Is Clear
--W. S. Merwin

 
Now it is clear to me that no leaves are mine
no roots are mine
that wherever I go I will be a spine of smoke in the forest
and the forest will know it
we will both know it
and that birds vanish because of something
that I remember
flying through me as though I were a great wind
as the stones settle into the ground
the trees into themselves
staring as though I were a great wind
which is what I pray for
it is clear to me that I cannot return
but that some of us will meet once more
even here
like our own statues
and some of us still later without names
and some of us will burn with the speed
of endless departures
and be found and lost no more


Saturday, November 6, 2010

ta-da

I have been waiting a while to say this: So I was down in the studio tonight . . . and I pulled out the Moby Dick box and unearthed a panel I started ages ago and -- made some progress. Hurrah for me.
Chapters 26 & 27: Knights and Squires 
The studio will evolve for a while At the moment, my enticing wall-to-wall, floor-to-ceiling closet is the holdall for stuff that lives in the living room. There was termite damage there as well, so I'm shifting things room by room and having the floors repaired. Nevertheless, it was possible to Do Something in The Studio.
^I did set up the Bernina that I bought -- also ages ago -- and have been afraid to use. But then I couldn't find the manual, so I took it down again and set out my stalwart little Janome.
^The big rack o'fabric will eventually be relocated in the b-i-g new closet.
^Temporary cutting table to see how it works it in that spot. It's kind of a small room, so getting things placed efficiently is going to take some experimenting.
 ^Pressing matters. I think I want to get a buffet/cabinet kind of thing with drawers and convert it to a cutting/pressing station. Helloooo, Ikea. Meanwhile, this will do.
^The b-i-g closet. Usually, it's the little things that make me this happy.

And -- a note to fans of Stella. She's been spending more time in the house now that it's getting chilly, so I expect projects will soon be underway. Her summer schedule of three days out, snack and overnight at home, then three days out again didn't allow for much in-house productivity. Or conversation.
The artist with her 2010 piece, Nip Socks in Pantry (I)
[temporary installation]

Friday, October 29, 2010

wordy wedn--i mean, thursday

Not changing the day, just running a bit late.

Inspiration is for amateurs.
The rest of us just show up and work.
--Chuck Close
(on Charlie Rose 10/27/10)


Wednesday, October 20, 2010

wordy wednesday


Sometimes
you have to let the game
come to you.
--Joe Torre


Wednesday, October 13, 2010

wordy wednesday

Basho
We know poetic poetry the common dangers
of moonstruckness, bel canto. Embalsamed air, that is all,
unless you turn it into pebbles that flash and hurt.
You, old master, polish the pebbles
that you fling to bring down a thrush.
Out of the world you cut an image that bears your name.
Seventeen pebbles for arrows a school of deathly singers.
See by the waterside the track of the poet
on his way to the innermost snowland. See how the water erases it
how the man with the hat inscribes it again
preserves water and footprint, capturing the movement that has passed,
so that what vanished is still there as something that vanished.

Cees Nooteboom
(translated from the Dutch by J.M. Coetzee)


Thursday, October 7, 2010

wordy wednesday


To find a form
that accommodates the mess,
that is the task of the artist now.

--Samuel Beckett


Monday, October 4, 2010

the size of their toys

When my uncle lived here, he was married to a woman whose maiden name was Holley. So he planted holly trees. I have always hated those trees. Despite ongoing lamentations that their hideous spiky leaves never decompose and cheerfully lacerate hands, knees, and feet and can puncture heavy denim clothing; and despite the fact that, in rain and in winter, the branches threatened the utility wires that ran to the house from the street; and despite the fact that the density of the growth obscured the view of the front yard (not a good thing in this less-than-good neighborhood), my mother's near-Druidical reverence for all things green meant that The Trees Stayed. But Mom's not in charge anymore. heh. heh. heh.

So I called the fabulous Owens Brothers, tree experts extraordinaire, and they came on Saturday with a crew and serious equipment, and Took Care of It.

8:25 a.m. Saturday. The pall of hated, spiky green.

8:30 a.m. The convoy of trucks, some the size of small buildings.



with cute names


8:40 a.m.  Down to business. Steve backs in the cherry-picker and makes quick work of the Most Hated One. Yes, that awful tree was as tall as the house.

Meanwhile, Dennis got the guys working on the side yard -- grossly deciduous and overgrown Rose of Sharon bushes and, what else, more holly trees
whee ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

9:10 (or so). Dennis pruned the dogwood tree. I do like the dogwood tree. I hope that now that it doesn't have to compete with the hulking holly for air, water, and light, that it will relax into its more natural, beautifully graceful form.

Steve (and Vermeer) ground out the stumps

10:00 a.m. They drove off, leaving behind light, air, and not the least wisp of debris. So there it is -- the house my grandfather started building 1931 and added to and added to as needed until he was done.

If she were alive to see this, my mother would kill me. heh. heh. heh. . .
Although, it looks a little bare . . . I will need to investigate full-sun planting, new territory, for sure.
Curious side note: back in the early 1960s, when they were young and in love and first married, Dennis and Steve's parents lived in the first-floor apartment of the house. Their Dad, Bobby Owens, was one of the original Owens Brothers and started the business with his brothers when they were barely out of their teens. (One brother, I think, may still have been in his teens.)

It's almost a shame the house itself isn't a writer . . . it has stories.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

wordy wednesday



Youth could win,
but had not learned to keep:
and was pitiably weak
against age.

--T.E. Lawrence,
               Seven Pillars of Wisdom

Friday, September 24, 2010

even wordier Friday

In 1999, as part of my thesis for my MFA, I wrote an essay about the death of my brother. People ask me about it from time to time, so I thought I'd post it. It was published in The Threepenny Review in the Spring 2001 issue and cited as a Notable Essay in the listings in that year's Best American essays annual (not reprinted, just cited, but that was sufficiently startling when I picked up a copy at Barnes & Noble, scanned the listings, and went "Wait a minute, that's me" ).

If you decide to read it, be prepared for it being l-o-n-g and sad, because it is.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

wordy wednesday: a favorite song

I have always loved the John Sebastian song Darling, Be Home Soon. Simple, direct, doesn't try to do too much, says almost everything worth saying.


Come
And talk of all the things we did today
Here
And laugh about our funny little ways
While we have a few minutes to breathe
Then I know that it's time you must leave.

But darling be home soon
I couldn't bear to wait an extra minute if you dawdled
My darling be home soon
It's not just these few hours but I've been waiting since I toddled
For the great relief of having you to talk to.

Saturday, September 18, 2010

knows all, sawzall

I decided to have a little more work done in the studio before I declare that bridge open. The floor had some termite damage, so the carpenter came, cut out about half of it with his handy Sawzall, and put down plywood.

And then I thought, as long as I'm doing this, let me really do it. When the closet was installed the first time, I said I wanted the closet door to run floor-to-ceiling, wall-to-wall so I wouldn't have those awful dead spaces at the sides and top where Stuff Goes to Die. For reasons not worth getting into, that didn't happen, but now I thought: "Splurge." So the carpenter also sawzalled out the closet wall and then I went to Home Depot and ordered a fancy folding door that will run floor-to-ceiling, wall-to-wall. O!, frabjous day.

Meanwhile, the carpenter's assistant was busy screwing the plywood to the joists. At day's end on Tuesday, I had this:

 I went immediately to the flooring place to order something pretty. On Friday, Richie came and put down an underlayment   
Friday, 2:00 p.m.
and cushion-backed sheet vinyl that looks like bleached planking

Friday, 3:30 p.m.
I think it's pretty - and the cushion backing is very cushy indeed. Take my word for it.

The fancy closet door is due in about another fortnight. When that goes in, the baseboards will be put back in and Things Will Be Lovely, Secure, and Organized. In the meantime, I can start configuring the closet interior and move some things back into the room, which will clear space in the other rooms that need attention. . .
And so it goes.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

wordy wednesday


Just don't give up trying to do
what you really want to do.
Where there is love and inspiration,
I don't think you can go wrong.
--Ella Fitzgerald

progress, of a kind

There have been men in the house. Plumbing and carpentry have been represented. Soon, a cameo by an electrician. Then Men with Chain Saws for the yard. Then the grotesque house my grandfather concocted from determination and packing tape will be ready(ish) for winter, and I will be able to walk around in the studio without hearing the floors crackle and splinter -- which is very distracting. ka-ching, ka-ching, but not as bad as I'd feared. Not even close to what I'd feared, which was more like ka-ching, Ka-Ching, KA-CHIIINNG!!

Meanwhile I've been working on something. Inspired by a course description for a class that will focus on crosses and Xs, I made some Xs. The Xs became kind of petroglyph-ish.

Initial pencil sketch (right)
Sharpie tracing for projector (left)
Then, emboldened by my recent foray into dyeing, and empowered by my newly neatened stacks of fabric, I immediately found something in my closet that would work as a background. Except it was pink. Here followed a flurry of trying to turn pink into ochre.

Test swatch 3 or 4
Acrylic paint (ochre) on pink commercial print cotton.
Too yellow.
Test swatch 6 (or so)
Overdyed (tan) painted with acrylic (ochre and burnt sienna).
Much better.

I was thinking of the sueded, hand-dyed Cherrywood fabrics for the figures (the dark rectangles pinned on the background sample, below), but I think it maybe the wrong texture. Not to mention that it's wickedly expensive and I have a boatload of things on hand -- one or another of which surely could be made to serve. . .

So, on to roughing in the figures. This will be much, much larger than I'm used to -- in the range of 45 inches (115 cm) square -- so I put up some big paper and fiddled with the projector until I had something not too scary, then splashed on some paint for a very, very general idea.

It never hurts to have a professional share her expertise.
And that's as far as I've gotten. Which is further than I've been in a while. It's a good feeling.

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

wordy wednesday


Silence
is the element
in which
great things
fashion themselves.

--Thomas Carlyle

Saturday, August 21, 2010

coincidence?

or fate?
My stars today:
Leo (July 23 - August 22) If you have some spare time, you should tidy up your environment today. Being organized can contribute to being successful, so clear out messes that have been piling up in your office and around your home. Besides, you never know what you might unearth as you dig through the past month's clutter! You may find exactly what you have been looking for.

My mat knife (aka utility knife). I would like to find my mat knife -- or any of the half dozen or so mat knives that are scattered throughout house because I put one down, forget where I put it, and buy another. I think a squirrel could do a better job of keeping track of these than I do. It's always a happy surprise when I run across one. Oh, hello, there you are. . .

Today I painted. As it turned out, Provence Cream was too yellow. Vanilla Cream was too gray. But the two creams mixed together -- perfect. And with a yield of two gallons, no worries about running out of my even more customized custom color.

Tomorrow, the 'raising the design wall' adventure.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

almost

Behind curtain #1

Is all the fabric that there is. On one, and only one, rolling shelf unit that fits neatly into the opening of the closet. (No, I'm not up to the Please iron those curtains, Melanie, my god, there are people here . . .)

I should say almost all the fabric that there is. There is more in the to-be-washed bag and a bit more in a bookcase in the office, all of which should fit on the bottom shelf, then I'm done. If there's more fabric in the house -- and there very well might be (get thee behind me, Satin!) -- it ain't staying. This is more than enough to sustain me for Quite Some Time.

Now that I've found the floor, I'm up to the sweeping/vacuuming/mopping part. And now that I can move around in the room relatively freely, I'm painting the walls. Behr paint #320A: Provence Cream. You wouldn't think it would be this hard to pick an off-white, but I've painted one wall to see how it looks and I can't decide if it's too yellow. More butter than cream. Ah me. Everyone should have problems of this weight -- and no more than this weight.

Stay tuned.

Sunday, August 8, 2010

ai-yi-yi

I'm going to take some classes in the fall and thought it would be a good idea to have A Place to Work that was somewhat organized and had a visible surface or two to support school-related activities. Since it was more than time to unpack from the Crow class I thought I'd start by organizing my fabrics. In Creating Your Perfect Quilting Space, the author (Lois L. Hallock) suggests using a folding tool so all your yardage is in similar-size bundles and can stack neatly. She also says that you don't know how much and what kind of storage you need until you know what you have, so I stopped looking at catalogs of lovely shelving units and decided to go with what's here. What's here is a royal mess:
Even the cat is afraid to go in there.

But one must persevere, despite the skeptics.
The folding tool revealed that five across is a workable plan.

By the end of Saturday evening. I'd achieved this:

And by the end of Sunday, this:

Describing one client's do-over, Hallock says that the client and her friends spent 200 hours folding fabric. I believe it. Beau remains skeptical.

^I don't think this is his "Darling, I just love what you've done with this room" face. But it's a beginning -- the room, not the face -- and I'm encouraged.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

the heat is hot

It is punishingly hot.
85F/30C (that sounds so much pleasanter to unaccustomed ears: 30 degrees, if only)
60% humidity
heat index 91

Ow.

Clearly it's time for buckets of iced tea. Here's how my Mom made it, by the gallon, with a syrup. Never cloudy, always bright.

In a small saucepan,
2 cups (or so) tap water.
No real need to measure, but you want to avoid boiling over.
5 tea bags
(Plain old black tea from the grocery store -- Tetley, Red Rose,
Salada -- whatever's on sale in the 100-count box)
10 tablespoons sugar
(ah, those were the days, and even so, Dad added MORE sugar
to each glassful he drank )
Have ready:
1 lemon
1/2 lime
ICE and cold water
1-gallon vessel

Bring the tea and sugar mixture just to boiling. Stir while heating to be sure all the sugar dissolves. Turn off the heat, let cool on the burner (or not).
While the syrup is working, squeeze lemon and lime juice into the vessel. Fill halfway with cold water. Add the syrup, ice, and more water to make one gallon.
Mom used to make extra syrup and freeze or refrigerate it, so as not to be stirring hot stuff when it was punishingly hot. And so as not to run out.

I make a 2-quart version with 4 teabags, 3 packets of Equal, 1/2 a lemon and 1/2 a lime. I just boil the teabags and add everything else after. I also keep extra brew in the fridge, mostly so that it's already cold when needed.

We always dumped the rinds into the tea, the oil in the rinds adds flavor. Back in the day, we didn't wash the fruit first, but these days I do.

We didn't fuss with greenery, mint and such, or with bush or tree fruits, but feel free if you like that sort of thing. And fool with the ratio of tea and sweetening until you find the balance of strength and sweetness you like -- which, now that I think of it, is pretty good advice for much of life.

Monday, August 2, 2010

piece process

So I'm back from the Nancy Crow extravaganza and I must say it was remarkable. Intense, as promised, but exhilarating and possibly exalting.

We began with an exercise in black and white. So far, so good, b&w is my comfort zone. Nancy gave us a list of widths to cut and sew together, and we were set loose to make a composition out of the pieces. I started out working horizontally.

But as the thing evolved, I liked it better vertical.

That long strip of black in white at the bottom was something I stuck in as a place holder because I was (already) getting tired and we were running out of time. It is also, of course, the one thing Nancy remarked on: "I'm not sure about this piece." she said. Me neither.

That was Monday. On Tuesday (into Wednesday), we began piecing together colors in prescribed assortments (warm/cool, neutrals, neutrals and brown, brown with blue, etc.) and ratios. We were exhorted to do 16 of these. I managed 12, one of which (the rust and purple one near the bottom) was not on the list. I had confused and combined two instructions -- not the most auspicious start.

Wednesday into Thursday, we were to do another 14 or so assortments of "bold graphic prints", plaids, and stripes. I HATE plaid and refused to get any even for the purpose of the class. I made do with some batik and brights. I may have added 4 or so fabrics to the 12 from the first exercise.

Midday on Thursday, we got the final instruction: create a composition in the form of a ribbon quilt. Damn and blast!, I thought. If I had known we were going to make a ribbon quilt, I'd have approached the whole piecing exercise completely differently. Which, I realized in the next moment, is the point of not knowing.

Onward. Sorted and pinned things, hoping for a composition to emerge. I am very fond of that sparrow-color gradation of brown and gray at the top, but it didn't make it into the final piece.
Adding and subtracting and shifting things up, down, across, and around on the design wall, by midnight or so I had this:

A somewhat coherent something with a big hole in the middle. I could not resolve the void, so I gave up and went to bed. First, for levity's sake, I filled the hole with one possibility:

(That's a scrap paper label stating: "Your Name Here." My mind was not the only thing that wouldn't come into focus . . .)

Friday. Fresh perspective. At breakfast I had an idea that amounted to "retreat to your comfort zone: go for b&w." As I was working, I was uneasy about the T-shaped purple bit, but Nancy said, "Keep that. It makes the whole piece." She also was complimentary about the use of b&w to resolve the center. Okay then, be it resolved:
It was 5.30 on Friday. I had made it through -- and finished something -- and was jumping up and down chortling:"I survived Nancy Crow!" She had the grace to smile.

Saturday, I went to an exhibition of Nancy's work at the Schweinfurth Center in Auburn, and then I came home -- with renewed enthusiasm and a great deal to think about. I think this is going to be the event I look back at and say "That's where it all changed and came together."