Friday, August 12, 2011

scared myself

Back in May, in an exercise in Dorothy Caldwell's class, we each made a b-i-g painting. I liked mine so much that I had it framed. (There's a bit of glare on the glass.) I have, in general, fallen hard for ink painting.

approximately 48 x 48 inches (122cm) with frame

The framer's assistant liked it so much, he told me that he "didn't want to let it go." The framer liked it so much that on the strength of this one thing he offered to arrange a show for me at a local club.

Yikes.

So I was paralyzed for about a month. Could I really do this 'art thing'? Could I do something like this again? Could I do anything at all? I had the worst cold of my life when I made that painting, should I spend the rest of my life contracting viruses? Or, since I enjoy ink so much, should I just pull up my socks, gather supplies, and do some work?

Now there's an idea. Baby steps.

So today I made a painting. It's not an especially good painting, but it's one more than I had yesterday -- which brings my oeuvre to deux. I think I like it better horizontal (last shown, below). 
as painted (22 x 30 inches high / 56 x 76cm)
 
up side down

horizontal

upside down and horizontal

10 comments:

daviddrawsandpaints said...

Whatever way up, I love it - a truly Subconscious Musing of deeply felt power.

And the one at 120cm square is phenominal, no wonder the framer wanted to keep it!

Melanie said...

David!!!!! Hello!!!
It's so good to hear from you.
Thanks for the encouragement, it means a lot.

The big painting was kind of an accident -- truly subconscious, maybe even unconscious, splashing around -- which is why I'm so nervous about trying it again.

Cindy Green said...

Wow! Love the new look! So bold and graphic and free! Good for you for doing a second one - so much pressure to repeat a success, just go for it! You've got it in you!

Melanie said...

Thanks for the encouragement, Cindy. The next 3 paintings have been too awful to post. But I think I'm learning from them, so maybe after another couple dozen, I'll post again.

Denise Aumick said...

Definitely the horizontal! And...yes...you should keep on keeping on with these. What is this about a show? Coolness, Mel.

ArtPropelled said...

Love what you are doing now! Your new painting appeals to me the most in the first and last of the 4 different sides up...... especially the first. I'm so thrilled you have an exhibition in your sights. The thought of it is enough to freeze you but you just need to push through the resistance because your work is wonderful and you will get there. I know all about art performance anxiety!It can be conquered :-)

Every time I think about you over several days your name pops up on my blog.

Laura Tringali Holmes said...

Oh, performance anxiety, that rat. Chase it back into its hole! Enjoying your ink work a whole lot. Onward!

Norma Schlager said...

A solo show?! How exciting is that? Your ink work is exciting. Keep up the good work!

Vivien Zepf said...

Woo hoo! A solo show! Can't wait to hear the details and see all the fabulous art I'm sure you'll create. How exciting!

-- HA! My word verification is "mix one" (I inserted the space.) Is this a clue for what I should do today?

Melanie said...

I don't know if this is ever going to happen. The painting I've tried since doing the big painting hasn't been very striking. But I'll keep at it and see what I see.

Thanks for the enthusiasm and encourggement, everyone.