Only two deaths in the past three weeks, and only one that involved going back and forth and back forth half a dozen times to the police. (Not a criminal death, just a solitary one and that always provokes a maddening bureaucracy.) And -- on an unrelated note -- I have begun to fear that my 83-year-old mother, who has a variety of physical limitations, is now also losing her mind. This is not a metaphor. And my favorite aunt's cancer is back. Whoever said that life is "nasty, brutish, and short" got it mostly right. Only sometimes it's not short enough.
I'm not sure when I'll be able to post again -- which I suppose is a mercy to y'all considering that I have little to say that isn't limned with despair. I've been thinking of closing down the blog entirely, but I'm going to wait to decide.
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Art is the dynamic edge between the conscious and the unconscious. It is [the] position of transcendental awareness.
—Richard Pousette-Dart
Many persons have a wrong idea of what constitutes happiness. It is not attained through self-gratification but through fidelity to a worthy purpose. —Helen Keller
Eccentricity has always abounded when and where strength of character has abounded; and the amount of eccentricity in a society has generally been proportional to the amount of genius, mental vigor, and moral courage which it contained. That so few now dare to be eccentric, marks the chief danger of the time. —John Stuart Mill, On Liberty
Your vision will become clear only when you can look into your own heart. Who looks outside, dreams; who looks inside, awakes. —Carl Jung
—Richard Pousette-Dart
Many persons have a wrong idea of what constitutes happiness. It is not attained through self-gratification but through fidelity to a worthy purpose. —Helen Keller
Eccentricity has always abounded when and where strength of character has abounded; and the amount of eccentricity in a society has generally been proportional to the amount of genius, mental vigor, and moral courage which it contained. That so few now dare to be eccentric, marks the chief danger of the time. —John Stuart Mill, On Liberty
Your vision will become clear only when you can look into your own heart. Who looks outside, dreams; who looks inside, awakes. —Carl Jung
11 comments:
Oh Melanie, I'm so sorry for your losses and stresses. My thoughts are with you. Bad times indeed and maybe more ahead, but pass they do. Don't worry yourself with the burden of feeling you should post, but keep it open. Maybe you'll feel a need to come back and vent.
Your words and those of other bloggers were a real comfort to me when my father died.
Be well.
Yes, Ellen has said it most eloquently.
thanks, I do tend to den-up when stressed. I'll just have to see how it goes. This problem with my mother is such uncharted territory. I hate that so many criticially important things in life are rooted in guessing. Maybe this will help, maybe that will work, then again, maybe not, but let's try it and see . . . oof.
wv: comerses
I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time but please don't close down your blogsite entirely. Let it lie fallow for a while and later when the sun comes out you might feel like starting afresh. We will still be hanging around struggling with our own lives and looking for entertaining diversions to make us smile. See you in a while.
Hasta la vista!
DAVID
wv: messetri from the latin messe (harvest) meaning good times will surely follow ;o)
Oh Melanie, so sorry to hear this. We understand. This is so stressful, and discouraging. Especially the part about your mom. I know there's really nothing good I can say, but know that I'm thinking of you and I hope you can hold up under the weight of it.
Hi Melanie. I'm sorry you're dealing with such distressing and depressing things. My one little word of advice about your mother is a simple suggestion to take her to the doctor to make sure she's not running a bladder infection...my friend Nancy's mother seemed to suddenly develop dementia but it was actually the effects of a bladder infection. And although my mother did turn out to be suffering from Alzheimer's, the two times she had a bladder infection her symptoms of mental confusion became much worse, and then much better when she started on antibiotics.
xoxoxoxox...no closing please....a hiatus perhaps. And yes, life can feel too long at times but remember - don't weaken.
oh Melanie... i'm so sorry... hang in there! my thoughts are with you... thanks for coming on monday night, now i know how much that meant...
You've got a very good idea to contact your county social services to see if you can get visiting nurse service. They may also know about providers of respite care...someone who can come in and spend some time with your mother so that you can do some things for yourself without worrying about her.
Familiar territory...loss and mum suffering from Alzheimers. It's not easy at all but as David says the sun comes out again and I hope you keep your blog open even if you take time out.
Leslie from texturesshapescolor.blogspot.com/ emailed me about your comment on ancientartist. Thanks so much for the mention.
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